The Departure 入殓师

昨晚看了这部戏。。

故事很简单，但却能带出非凡的意义。。

我好爱好爱里头的大提琴。。很感动，真的。。

看着看着不禁流起泪来。。

有机会的话，请你们一定要看。。=）

chinese new year is coming.

not much of anticipation actually.

things have changed a lot. the current is nothing compared to the past.

people are too materialistic, calculative, and self-centered.

the meaning behind chinese new year has long gone with the wind.

the faces that i wished for will only remain as a memory.

i do not know what lies ahead.

it seems to be unpredictable, vague and blurry.

i hope for a better year, with peace and prosperity.

i pray for good health, for everyone around me.

i wish for a more critical-thinking-mind.

i ask for a higher EQ management.

wish that i will be blessed with rings of luck~~

happy chinese new year in advance~

fake world

when everything appears to be so superficial, you can't help but to feel a sense of disgust.

when everyday has to be the same old routine, you can't help but to stop yourself from puking.

when you has always become the topic of discussion of others, you might wonder- am i too good or am i too bad?

when you have no one to understand the struggle within you, you can't help but to feel pathetic.

when you started to doubt yourself, who else out there can give you a sense of security?

you look back at your own reflection in the mirror, starting to feel that this image is sort of unknown, who is that which lies within?

when you are stuck in a stuffy environment, and you hardly can breath, but you still hang on, because there is no door for you to escape.

when you are so badly damaged by the poisonous arrows, you believe you can heal by your own.

in the end, you end up with fibrosis.

you started to not believe in anything you see or listen.

you started to lose confidence in each encounter.

you feel like you have lost the battle, but in fact, you know you have won.

you have lots of thoughts within, but you can't possibly make it right.

everything seems to be scattered. unsynchronized.

you almost forget what have you been previously.

the urge to get out is so great, but you never gonna achieve it so soon.

you know what is the path, somehow.. you deny it.

you hypnotize yourself, but it can't change a thing.

how you wish your world is all by you alone. nothing interferes with the progress.

this is a fake world.

the end

心烦

最近开始拿病人。。起初以为会很期待，其实是焦虑多一点。。

电话钱在不知不觉当中就少了好多，因为要打给病人预约。。

工作的病人，要安排自己什么时候可以来。。而不是你可以随传随到的。。

在一个固定的clinical session 没办法做treatment, 又觉得对不起病人。。

可是你又得做完所有examination and diagnosis 才可以present 给doctor, 然后才start treatment。

好烦。。我觉得我的速度很慢，但是我又不想做一位不负责任的牙医，随便草草了事。。

可是每个clinical session 的时间有限。。我又不得不快。。天啊。。

我会烦死啊。。

下一站幸福

刚刚看完这部台剧，不知不觉地爱上吴建豪。。一直以来都不懂他的演技可以这么好。。哈哈。。超爱他的！很帅气！很温柔！

The inner strength

It is beginning to reveal itself, after so many traumas and accidents.
My heart has an amour with it, for a never ending battle.
It is time....

天气真的热到不行。。
快烧焦了~~
祝大家考试顺利。。

I am tired.. but it seems that there is no time to rest anymore..

A slot for me

After months of settling down, I feel much better.
When I tried to use different methods in handling stuff, it was not that tiring compared to last time.
I tried to talk less, care less, and I am much cheerful in my own way, I guess.
I cannot manipulate a situation which I don't fancy, so I will just let it happen when it should have happened.
I missed the life I had before this. Much sincere, much honest.
I cannot stop people from back-stabbing, and so I also don't wish to know when people want to back Stab me, kill me directly if you dare. Just got too fed up with all those stuff.
And now I don't mind you are a 2 faces person, just that when I am not, that worth it all.
And when you choose to switch, it is none of my matter anymore, everyone has got a choice, don't we?
When you lie about your intention, I know it, although I don't speak it out. My sixth sense has its own way out.
3 more years, I will be able to get out. My freedom and unleash myself.
You don't have to know what I am saying, because when you have faced it, then you will understand eventually.
A piece of good memory waiting to be installed into my mind will be deleted in advance due to some unwanted viruses. Those viruses are fatal. When you see viruses can be in plural, you know they can be counted distinctively.
I will never ever anticipate anything from here. Never anymore.
Have a nice day people.

2308

Feeling rather irritating now..
I have a lot going on in my mind now..
Rm 500.. hope it is not burnt..
Tutorials.. not finish reading
ESZ day on Sunday
Bumi Hijau stuff
I m trying to sort out.. but still I lost my concentration in everything..
Hate this..

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy chinese new year to all.

I am happy to be able to meet up with old friends. Sad that some of them are leaving Malaysia soon.
Some I don't even have the chance to meet them even once a year, poor thing.

Although we tend to run out of topic, seeing you all means a lot to me.. =)

Few more days and I have to go back to that Room-which I never had liked it before..

hmm, I am meeting another group tomorrow.. anticipating.. =)
so good night for now..

random

Monday is D-day for Dental Materials mini test, and I am really struggling for it.. all the compositions, setting reactions, properties.. nevermind.

when it comes to something which concerns emotion, people will tend to have lots of mind of their own. Negative ones, bad ones. I had been through lots of ups and downs of emotional fluctuation, and of course I learnt a lot too..

when I look back the past, somehow it may be unhappy, but when you have completely released all the grudges you have been holding for so long, your heart will not ache at all.. Trust me

time really is the antidote for almost everything. but definitely not all.

well, need to do my stuff.. bye for now

update

so long never blog..
because I find that I can't express myself much in terms of words..
still the same old me, maybe I am not hardworking enough in studies..
mini tests are approaching again,
head gonna burst again,
please do give me ur support, i desperately need it now!!
the feeling at home is total warmth, and not that lonely..
today i went for contact lens fitting, it took me 2 hours leh....
looking forward for my lenses to arrive.. wohoo~ although i only wear it occasionally..
actually optometry students also very cham, they have to queue for patients early in the morning, if anyone of you would like to get a complete eye checking, please feel free to go to UKM KL optometry clinic..
If you have any problems regarding your teeth, you can also visit UKM KL dental clinic..

It is a rainy night... spare me some study mood...

I miss you ALL.. =) HAHAHA

Happy Birthday To me..

Thanks everyone who wished me and called me from abroad.. I was really really touched..
and most importantly I must thank my mom for giving me and loving me so much.. I love you!
Presents that I got.. Recently updated

A Charles and Keith bag from Annie, Jia Xin, Hui Yuh, Ling Vuan, Michael and Sam.

Thanks Flochi-Why for drawing this.. Thanks flochi-men, see you all in Singapore!

A key pendant


A Swatch watch

A pair of indoor slippers plus a box of hand fold stars


A photo frame from Chia Yi and Wee Kwong. SOrry that I forgot to capture a photo of it. ^^



Eggs coated with red dye

and of course my birthday cake!

together with

ME!!


Thanks to Annie, Jia Xin, Hui Yuh, Michael, Sam and Jun Xiang who spent their time to celebrate with me at Shabu One Steamboat Restaurant!
attach another of my YENG photo..

wonder how my hair gets to stand like that..

ANother Hot Kiss Scene..

And lastly Happy Birthday To ME! Wishing me very best in everything I do! I hope for a better year ahead!

random

2 revision classes today and it ended schooling session.
Microbiology mini test is on its way, expecting to arrive at 9am tomorrow ( if nothing obstructs its way)
Week by week passes by so soon, and 30th November is not too far from now..
Exam mode has to be tuned on(I supposed so), but my switch is still OFF..Save me..
my mind is drifting away.. nowhere near my lecture notes.. Sometimes I don't know what is happening to me.. my inner thought changes everyday, my mood swings easily, is this a sign of aging? I hope not.. 21 of age in just a few days time.. :x
I hope for a new start, a brand new me, I don't ever want to live in the past, haunted by unpleasant memories, shed my tears easily. People have to change, move forward and never look back if possible.
Thanks everyone who loves me, who dislikes me, who hates me.. You all have made changes in my life, and this is who I am now..
Suddenly the post becomes emo.. TIme to get back into Microb, stick and play around with Bacterias, Fungi and viruses..
SO long..

今天的我很忧郁。。想家。。想妈妈。。
因为明天有考试+活动，结果未能回家。。
我讨厌这种感觉。。没人可以倾诉的感觉。。我很累。。可是我凭什么和别人投诉说我很累？
别人在考试，我只是小考 。。又算得了什么。。
我很怀疑自己的手工。。就连假牙也做不好。。好想把整副给丢掉。。我很烦啊。。
钻牙也不怎么样。。好没用。。我不懂我怎么了。。真的很想抛开一切。。不要读了。。
又再次失去那股冲劲。。失败的我。。唉

最近思维有点混淆，情绪少少失控。。
自己好像变得没品。。哈哈。。不懂是否用对词？

近来都没有update blog, 因为我不知道要写什么。。
就好像现在，没有idea要怎样继续。。很无聊啊。。

拜拜

Friday night at KTSN

Finally I finished my 2 exams in a week... such a relief.. It is so hard to get a good night sleep nowadays, with a merely 5 hours of rest per day.. Tonight will be a night to rest well before going on further.
Went to Time Square and had dinner at Sushi King- Unagi Bento set..
And congratz to 1st yr dental student for graduating from IO..
我真的很累！！眼皮快盖下来了。。晚安！

Update

Hello everyone.
It has been long since my last post.
School life has been busy and hectic for me, there is so much to learn and so much to remember.
To be frank, I still cannot find the exact mood to fit in this new semester. I still don't know why.
There is some changes taking place just recently. A lot of misunderstandings and improper communication which lead to quarrel ---> grudges ---> end of friendship. It is a sad thing to see that happening, as I have been through it also.
Life is always full of challenges. Yet, you have to find a way to survive and carry on. No one will stop and wait. People are getting more realistic, is it true? People will only care for themselves and no one else?
well. I dont know what to continue. Bye

Yay!!

I get to go home finally!
Time of release will be at 9am sharp tomorrow. I can't bear one more day living in this place!!
Such a relief to all of us! Finally get to see smiles from everyone.. Yippe!!