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The Departure 入殓师

2011-01-27T21:27:00.002+08:00

昨晚看了这部戏。。

故事很简单，但却能带出非凡的意义。。

我好爱好爱里头的大提琴。。很感动，真的。。

看着看着不禁流起泪来。。

有机会的话，请你们一定要看。。=）

2011-01-25T21:30:00.002+08:00

chinese new year is coming.

not much of anticipation actually.

things have changed a lot. the current is nothing compared to the past.

people are too materialistic, calculative, and self-centered.

the meaning behind chinese new year has long gone with the wind.

the faces that i wished for will only remain as a memory.

i do not know what lies ahead.

it seems to be unpredictable, vague and blurry.

i hope for a better year, with peace and prosperity.

i pray for good health, for everyone around me.

i wish for a more critical-thinking-mind.

i ask for a higher EQ management.

wish that i will be blessed with rings of luck~~

happy chinese new year in advance~

fake world

2011-01-24T22:00:00.002+08:00

when everything appears to be so superficial, you can't help but to feel a sense of disgust.

when everyday has to be the same old routine, you can't help but to stop yourself from puking.

when you has always become the topic of discussion of others, you might wonder- am i too good or am i too bad?

when you have no one to understand the struggle within you, you can't help but to feel pathetic.

when you started to doubt yourself, who else out there can give you a sense of security?

you look back at your own reflection in the mirror, starting to feel that this image is sort of unknown, who is that which lies within?

when you are stuck in a stuffy environment, and you hardly can breath, but you still hang on, because there is no door for you to escape.

when you are so badly damaged by the poisonous arrows, you believe you can heal by your own.

in the end, you end up with fibrosis.

you started to not believe in anything you see or listen.

you started to lose confidence in each encounter.

you feel like you have lost the battle, but in fact, you know you have won.

you have lots of thoughts within, but you can't possibly make it right.

everything seems to be scattered. unsynchronized.

you almost forget what have you been previously.

the urge to get out is so great, but you never gonna achieve it so soon.

you know what is the path, somehow.. you deny it.

you hypnotize yourself, but it can't change a thing.

how you wish your world is all by you alone. nothing interferes with the progress.

this is a fake world.

the end

心烦

2010-12-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

最近开始拿病人。。起初以为会很期待，其实是焦虑多一点。。

电话钱在不知不觉当中就少了好多，因为要打给病人预约。。

工作的病人，要安排自己什么时候可以来。。而不是你可以随传随到的。。

在一个固定的clinical session 没办法做treatment, 又觉得对不起病人。。

可是你又得做完所有examination and diagnosis 才可以present 给doctor, 然后才start treatment。

好烦。。我觉得我的速度很慢，但是我又不想做一位不负责任的牙医，随便草草了事。。

可是每个clinical session 的时间有限。。我又不得不快。。天啊。。

我会烦死啊。。

下一站幸福

2010-05-11T12:37:00.001+08:00

刚刚看完这部台剧，不知不觉地爱上吴建豪。。一直以来都不懂他的演技可以这么好。。哈哈。。超爱他的！很帅气！很温柔！

The inner strength

2010-04-16T11:47:00.001+08:00

It is beginning to reveal itself, after so many traumas and accidents.
My heart has an amour with it, for a never ending battle.
It is time....

2010-04-07T12:49:00.002+08:00

天气真的热到不行。。
快烧焦了~~
祝大家考试顺利。。

2010-03-15T19:26:00.001+08:00

I am tired.. but it seems that there is no time to rest anymore..

A slot for me

2010-03-06T19:00:00.004+08:00

After months of settling down, I feel much better.
When I tried to use different methods in handling stuff, it was not that tiring compared to last time.
I tried to talk less, care less, and I am much cheerful in my own way, I guess.
I cannot manipulate a situation which I don't fancy, so I will just let it happen when it should have happened.
I missed the life I had before this. Much sincere, much honest.
I cannot stop people from back-stabbing, and so I also don't wish to know when people want to back Stab me, kill me directly if you dare. Just got too fed up with all those stuff.
And now I don't mind you are a 2 faces person, just that when I am not, that worth it all.
And when you choose to switch, it is none of my matter anymore, everyone has got a choice, don't we?
When you lie about your intention, I know it, although I don't speak it out. My sixth sense has its own way out.
3 more years, I will be able to get out. My freedom and unleash myself.
You don't have to know what I am saying, because when you have faced it, then you will understand eventually.
A piece of good memory waiting to be installed into my mind will be deleted in advance due to some unwanted viruses. Those viruses are fatal. When you see viruses can be in plural, you know they can be counted distinctively.
I will never ever anticipate anything from here. Never anymore.
Have a nice day people.

2308

2010-03-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

Feeling rather irritating now..
I have a lot going on in my mind now..
Rm 500.. hope it is not burnt..
Tutorials.. not finish reading
ESZ day on Sunday
Bumi Hijau stuff
I m trying to sort out.. but still I lost my concentration in everything..
Hate this..

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

Happy chinese new year to all.

I am happy to be able to meet up with old friends. Sad that some of them are leaving Malaysia soon.
Some I don't even have the chance to meet them even once a year, poor thing.

Although we tend to run out of topic, seeing you all means a lot to me.. =)

Few more days and I have to go back to that Room-which I never had liked it before..

hmm, I am meeting another group tomorrow.. anticipating.. =)
so good night for now..

random

2010-02-06T16:31:00.002+08:00

Monday is D-day for Dental Materials mini test, and I am really struggling for it.. all the compositions, setting reactions, properties.. nevermind.

when it comes to something which concerns emotion, people will tend to have lots of mind of their own. Negative ones, bad ones. I had been through lots of ups and downs of emotional fluctuation, and of course I learnt a lot too..

when I look back the past, somehow it may be unhappy, but when you have completely released all the grudges you have been holding for so long, your heart will not ache at all.. Trust me

time really is the antidote for almost everything. but definitely not all.

well, need to do my stuff.. bye for now

update

2010-01-22T19:15:00.004+08:00

so long never blog..
because I find that I can't express myself much in terms of words..
still the same old me, maybe I am not hardworking enough in studies..
mini tests are approaching again,
head gonna burst again,
please do give me ur support, i desperately need it now!!
the feeling at home is total warmth, and not that lonely..
today i went for contact lens fitting, it took me 2 hours leh....
looking forward for my lenses to arrive.. wohoo~ although i only wear it occasionally..
actually optometry students also very cham, they have to queue for patients early in the morning, if anyone of you would like to get a complete eye checking, please feel free to go to UKM KL optometry clinic..
If you have any problems regarding your teeth, you can also visit UKM KL dental clinic..

It is a rainy night... spare me some study mood...

I miss you ALL.. =) HAHAHA

Happy Birthday To me..

2009-11-16T19:15:00.014+08:00

Thanks everyone who wished me and called me from abroad.. I was really really touched..
and most importantly I must thank my mom for giving me and loving me so much.. I love you!
Presents that I got.. Recently updated

A Charles and Keith bag from Annie, Jia Xin, Hui Yuh, Ling Vuan, Michael and Sam.

Thanks Flochi-Why for drawing this.. Thanks flochi-men, see you all in Singapore!

A key pendant

A Swatch watch

A pair of indoor slippers plus a box of hand fold stars

A photo frame from Chia Yi and Wee Kwong. SOrry that I forgot to capture a photo of it. ^^

Eggs coated with red dye

and of course my birthday cake!

together with

ME!!

Thanks to Annie, Jia Xin, Hui Yuh, Michael, Sam and Jun Xiang who spent their time to celebrate with me at Shabu One Steamboat Restaurant!
attach another of my YENG photo..

wonder how my hair gets to stand like that..

ANother Hot Kiss Scene..

And lastly Happy Birthday To ME! Wishing me very best in everything I do! I hope for a better year ahead!

random

2009-11-11T15:35:00.003+08:00

2 revision classes today and it ended schooling session.
Microbiology mini test is on its way, expecting to arrive at 9am tomorrow ( if nothing obstructs its way)
Week by week passes by so soon, and 30th November is not too far from now..
Exam mode has to be tuned on(I supposed so), but my switch is still OFF..Save me..
my mind is drifting away.. nowhere near my lecture notes.. Sometimes I don't know what is happening to me.. my inner thought changes everyday, my mood swings easily, is this a sign of aging? I hope not.. 21 of age in just a few days time.. :x
I hope for a new start, a brand new me, I don't ever want to live in the past, haunted by unpleasant memories, shed my tears easily. People have to change, move forward and never look back if possible.
Thanks everyone who loves me, who dislikes me, who hates me.. You all have made changes in my life, and this is who I am now..
Suddenly the post becomes emo.. TIme to get back into Microb, stick and play around with Bacterias, Fungi and viruses..
SO long..

2009-10-30T17:21:00.002+08:00

今天的我很忧郁。。想家。。想妈妈。。
因为明天有考试+活动，结果未能回家。。
我讨厌这种感觉。。没人可以倾诉的感觉。。我很累。。可是我凭什么和别人投诉说我很累？
别人在考试，我只是小考。。又算得了什么。。
我很怀疑自己的手工。。就连假牙也做不好。。好想把整副给丢掉。。我很烦啊。。
钻牙也不怎么样。。好没用。。我不懂我怎么了。。真的很想抛开一切。。不要读了。。
又再次失去那股冲劲。。失败的我。。唉

2009-10-18T18:49:00.002+08:00

最近思维有点混淆，情绪少少失控。。
自己好像变得没品。。哈哈。。不懂是否用对词？

近来都没有update blog, 因为我不知道要写什么。。
就好像现在，没有idea要怎样继续。。很无聊啊。。

拜拜

Friday night at KTSN

2009-09-11T22:39:00.002+08:00

Finally I finished my 2 exams in a week... such a relief.. It is so hard to get a good night sleep nowadays, with a merely 5 hours of rest per day.. Tonight will be a night to rest well before going on further.
Went to Time Square and had dinner at Sushi King- Unagi Bento set..
And congratz to 1st yr dental student for graduating from IO..
我真的很累！！眼皮快盖下来了。。晚安！

Update

2009-09-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.
It has been long since my last post.
School life has been busy and hectic for me, there is so much to learn and so much to remember.
To be frank, I still cannot find the exact mood to fit in this new semester. I still don't know why.
There is some changes taking place just recently. A lot of misunderstandings and improper communication which lead to quarrel ---> grudges ---> end of friendship. It is a sad thing to see that happening, as I have been through it also.
Life is always full of challenges. Yet, you have to find a way to survive and carry on. No one will stop and wait. People are getting more realistic, is it true? People will only care for themselves and no one else?
well. I dont know what to continue. Bye

Yay!!

2009-07-29T21:09:00.003+08:00

I get to go home finally!
Time of release will be at 9am sharp tomorrow. I can't bear one more day living in this place!!
Such a relief to all of us! Finally get to see smiles from everyone.. Yippe!!

Another update

2009-07-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

According to the Star, there are six confirmed cases which originated from UKM KL.
That means, those who are living here, can never go home until this h1n1 has come to an end.
That means, we are in high risk of getting the h1n1 virus.
That means, we are keeping ourselves in and get infected.

TIll now, no further action has been taken, I don't know what they are up to, but at least, please do something for the residents in KTSN. We just don't want to wait for nothing..

Why our fate is so different from UUM and UPM students? why they got to go home and yet we have to lock ourselves in from the outside world?

I know the VITAL PART of quarantine, is to prevent the virus that might be stilll sticking to our bodies from spreading to the innocent. But is it wise to keep everyone in and put everyone at high risk in getting h1n1? aih..

Fed up..

LOCKED IN!!

2009-07-28T10:33:00.002+08:00

Due to increase Influenze-like-illness cases in my campus, yesterday my campus received a temporary notification to close down for a week.
Those who are illness free ( including me ), have to stay in, so that NO VIRUS will spread to the outside world.
I cannot go home, but to stay in my room for a week!! That is tormenting!!!
I hope there's no cases of h1n1 from my campus so that everything will be back to normal.. Replacement classes will be dreadful if classes really have to be canceled for a week...
Sigh, luckily I still have my precious laptop with me.. If not I cannot imagine what awaits me for the next 6 days..
Being quarantined is not fun!!!

New semester..

2009-07-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

It has been my second day back to UKM.
These two days were merely briefing on the new subjects by the lecturers.
Below are the list of subjects of Sem 1 Year 2 taken:
Pharmacology
Microbiology
Pathology
Dental Materials
Operative Dentistry
Oral Health
Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia
Pengurusan Emosi

This year the schedule is really packed compared to Yr 1. LAB lab lab.. lectures lectures...
and my partner in Dental Material and Operative Dentistry is Aisyah.. Hope we can be a great pair ~

I have met some if the juniors, but not all. Hmm.. I wonder if they really take any initiative to remember seniors' faces, because they didnt even know anyone's name before approaching, it is quite sad to say that, but that is the truth.

I have been good to give advice to the girls especially on the DO's and DONT's list during approaching seniors, but then, they dont seem to comprehend. Ah.. just sad that they dont even care what was being told.

New class representative has been elected, congratulations to Michael and also to your assistant, Fasya~

Thats all for my update, I guess. Check out ! Bye!

mixture

2009-07-03T11:21:00.004+08:00

Later in the afternoon I am going to Melaka!
Another week, I will be back to KTSN.. to endure my second year of studies..
Argh.. strange.. I dont feel too bored during this holiday, despite my ROUTINED daily activities.
I guess a person's perception really changes with years..
I am anticipated to meet my coursemates again, HOWever, the life of returning to school does not sound good to me..
9 weeks holidays is coming to an end.
Wonder what lies ahead of me, what challenges am I bound to encounter,
Will I be able to survive in one piece, Will I be a better person?

MOST importantly, I am a senior now.. with 55 juniors under me.. It feels good.. to be expecting their reactions towards Informal Orientation that is going to HAppeN once we return!

There is so much running in my mind now.. I cannot organize in sequence of what to tell first..

Oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUAN HUAN!! only 20 years of age.. EVNY!!

A message to JUJU:
I havent out to search for the pendant... Have you seen any nice one in any outlets near your house?

Ah.. dont know what else to say..
Sayounara~

2009-06-23T11:44:00.002+08:00

I'd love to have my imaginations fly when reading fiction books.
Just yesterday night, I finally finished off Twilight Saga series.
It took me almost nearly a week to enjoy those 4 books.
That was why I didn't go online for quite a long time.

watching the movie now.. update later

Tag

2009-05-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
(WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Green Bean Dessert
2. Last phone call: Mom
3. Last text message: Chee Wai
4. Last song you listened to: Opps, I didn’t listen to any
5. Last time you cried: Cant remember ^^

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: never wo..
7. Been cheated on: Secret
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: hmm.. my tortoise?
9. Lost someone special: nah, it doesn’t matter now
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: Never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Blue
14. Pale colours

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: more than 1
16. Fallen out of love: not even gone into it yet ..haha
17. Laughed until you cried: yes~
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: I did I guess
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list(FB): No..
22. How many people on your friends list(FB) do you know in real life: nearly all~
23. How many kids do you want?: 3
24. Do you have any pets: no..
25. Do you want to change your name: no pet how to change leh?

26. What did you do for your last birthday: studied for Sem 1 exam and celebrated with

ji muiz, thx mama for bringing the cake
27. What time did you wake up today: 8.30am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my leg to recover

30. Last time you saw your Mother: morning~
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: buck up, live life to the

fullest

32. What are you listening to right now : TV drama, n my typing sound
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: I am calm and peaceful~
35. Most visited webpage: facebook

Whats your real name: Ng Hui Cheen
Nicknames: I paiseh to tell lar..haha

Relationship Status: Single.. JUJU, lets mingle around~
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpion, watch out!
40. Male or female : female la..
41. Primary School?: SJK(C) Taman Rashna
42. Secondary School?: SMJK Kwang Hua
43. High school/college?: SMK Tinggi Klang
44. Hair colour: Dark brown, black, gray
45. Long or short: U measure for me la
46. Height: 162cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Probably not yet
48: What do you like about yourself?: for being myself
49. Piercings: ears
50. Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: Right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Removal of my wisdom teeth
53. First piercing: Ears
54. First best friend: Kathleen ( back in primary school )
55. First sport you joined: Netball
56. First vacation: Forgotten…
58. First pair of trainers: No idea
59. Eating: I don’t like typing while eating
60. Drinking: I am not.. I don’t drink while typing
61. I'm about to: bath
62. Listening to: TV
63. Waiting on: school to reopen

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: YES!
65. Get Married?: Definitely!
66. Career?: only one path … u know den know la. Dono also nvm.. haha

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: both ( hugs can be more widely used )
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: avoid both

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes.
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: haha… secret
82. Been arrested: no, I m a good citizen
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: depends
87. Miracles: yeah
88. Love at first sight: the 1^st impression is important
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: in my dream
91. Kiss on the first date: it might scare me off
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today?: I don’t
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: how do u consider cheating?
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: erm… let the natural aging process takes place la.. I dowan to go back
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: no need la, it is cheating !
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: No.. I would love to
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: some truths will not be revealed…

People tagged by me :JUJU, JG, vee mae, pigjeng, mihun, jozefin, nicholas, lemon, all the FLOWERS ... and others whom i know....

Ouch!

2009-05-21T08:16:00.002+08:00

yesterday accidentally sprained my ankle.. it spoiled my outings today... GERAM!

内心的宣言

2009-05-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

谢谢立扬的帮忙，谢谢振贺的开导。。
我会努力放下所有的不开心，毕竟我都活了２１年，也该对自己负责任。。我相信生命是美好的！

人生中所经历的，都一直扶持着我成长，虽然这一击伤势较严重，可是，我不会退缩的！

看不懂的人就别问了，这并不很光彩。。知道的人也别说, 因为那已成过去.

谢天谢地，我还有妈妈和朋友在我身边。。我知道你们不会放弃我，谢谢你们的包容～

Wee~

2009-05-08T11:07:00.002+08:00

6th of May

One day trip to Genting Highlands.
Well, a total of 14 people went for the trip to Genting Highlands. The journey started with
1.taking bus to Wangsa Maju Putra LRT station
2.travel another 2 stations to Terminal Putra- Gombak Station
3.bought tickets to genting highlands for RM 42 ( to and fro bus ticket, sky cabel tickets, indoor and
outdoor themepark )
4.departed at 10am, reach the sky cabel station at 10.30am.. (only half an hour!!)
5.hopped into the sky cabel then it brought us up to Genting Highlands in 25 minutes.
6.officially arrived at 11am!!

We straight away rushed to the themepark and started our PLAYING JOURNEY!

Genting Highlands seems to be a place of amusement for university's students. I met xiu yang, fei shan, soo kok weng, loong xiang there.. This world memang kecil~ My friends met their friends as well, really so ngam...

Hmm.. then we had KFC for our lunch..then we continued to play.....

play play play ----- till 6pm, we had pizza for our dinner..
the pizzas in PXXXX HUT at genting.... really.... sigh.. disappointing..

then we rushed for the bus.. at 7.45pm, we bid goodbye to genting highlands.. tatazz

7th of May

Result day

by 12.30pm, our Dean already waited for us outside the meeting room.. almost everyone was there waiting, out of a sudden, my adrenaline level raised up.. anxiety started to pour all over me..

Then we were called into the meeting room, take a seat and waited, because some of my friends were still on their way..

Our Dean gave some lecture.. blah blah blah.... then at about 12.45pm, he decided to announce our result..

"Ng Hui Cheen, where are you from?"
"Subang Jaya"
"Datang dengan apa?"
"kereta"
"pandu sendiri?"
After that I couldnt catch what was he saying, maybe I was nervous? until my comprehension ability was affected..

then he said ..... Ok good, you passed ! Boleh balik! hoho.....
Such a relief!!

I hope that for those who need to resit, do not be bothered by sadness, believe in your ability and do your best! one month time for preparation, you all can do it! Gambatei!

FrEeDoM!!

2009-04-24T16:14:00.004+08:00

yesterday i just finished my first professional exam for the first time..
the relief was so great that i couldn't find any words to describe it..
the hard time was about the preparation, the mental torturing, and physically due to lack of sleep and all sorts of stuff.

now, i am waiting to go home, to rest myself completely.. i definitely don't want to touch my books..

but, next tuesday, the viva list will be released. Meaning anyone score marks on the border line will need to go for an oral interview, or you may be also invited to attend for viva distinction..

anyway, i don't care for the time being, cause i am really exhausted.. now still feeling quite sleepy.. ZZzzzz

for those who are still struggling for exam, all the best.. i know exam is such a torture.. unless u tell me u like exam la.. hoho

k la.. i am very free except on 2nd of may.. cause i have BSMM exam.. hehe

tataz

headache!!

2009-03-08T15:21:00.002+08:00

Assignments !! they are killing me.. indirectly by killing my brain cells first..
please remove my brain for a while.. i want peace

失落感

2009-02-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

一个人的时候都会这样。。妈妈，快点回来。。

operation

2009-02-08T11:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday I went to somowhere KL.. not to shop, but to get pain..
I visited maksilofacial dentist regarding my TMJ..
It was Klinik Pakar Pergigian Wong..
After reaching there, same usual registration procedure..
Then I went in for X ray..
I waited for about 10 minutes, I was being called up ... Miss Ng Hui Cheen..
Next , my mama went in with me... That dentist looked rather strict and then his mandarin was funny ... While checking my TMJ, he would say "open open open, close close close " I didnt know why he must say for three times.. hehe...
In conclusion, he said my molar teeth were inflammed because there was not enough space of the teeth to erupt.
He suggested the upper right and lower right third molar teeth to be extracted, then next week he would teach me some jaw exercise, by then i would be able to open my mouth.
Agree.. but before that, my mom asked about the charges + blah a bit I am a student of UKM..
The dentist initially a bit hesitated to answer.. Eventually he told us.. for anaesthesia, it had standard charges-RM 500, for extraction, RM 500 for two teeth, ( normally he charged at RM 500 per tooth )
Ok lo.. DEAL.. then it started..
Anaesthsia- I was put into sleep by inserting the liquid into my vein on my hand. Then I slept.
After dono for how long, I began to regain consciousness, and by that time I could feel the force of pulling the teeth out by that dentist. After a while, when I managed to open my eyes, I saw he was sealing the wound with stitches.

Lastly, payment and medicines.. RM1025 plus 4 packets of drugs to be consumed.
appointment date next saturday. need to remove stitches.
today is the second day, my face is very obviously swollen... >.< my food is only porridge and nestum... SOB.. hope i get well soon..

pic

2009-02-02T13:49:00.000+08:00

this was the pre-reunion steamboat dinner we had~

happy chinese new year~

2009-01-23T00:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

everthing must be in red, cause it is chinese new year ~
Wee~~ so happy and excited...
currently I am listening to MY FM and 988 chinese new year songs~~
you all should do so, in case you still dont feel the chinese new year mood !!

just now went steamboat with my coursemates at Setapak. To be frank, the soups was SO SO, but most importantly, all of us had fun! hehe.. we took photos like we had never taken one in a decades.. hoho...then after steamboat, we went to eat desserts... wee... very syiok~ it was like we were having reunion dinner in advance ... hahaha.... hope we will have more outings like this in the future...

and people out there, if you all are planning to go for visiting, JIO ME!!!

LASTLY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! GONG HEI FATT CHOY!!

continuation..

2009-01-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

and then I stopped taking Ibuprofen.

On last Friday, whereby I was supposed to attend a BSMM camp at UKM Hutan Awam Bangi, I skipped for one day and went for second opinion about my jaw..

1st clinic
The dentist said due to I couldnt open my mouth big enough, he was unable to see my third molar position by using another type of X ray. And of course I explained to him that what Dr Safar told me-- the third molar on the ramus position. Then, he told me the tooth might be superior to the ramus or inferior to the ramus. I forgot which one had a higher risk to fracture the NECK of Mandible if oral surgery were to be done.
Given advice- use hot towel to relax my muscles
Prediction-my third molars probably wont erupt cause of my old age.. ahem
Consultation fees : RM 10

2nd clinic
The dentist checked on my mouth, and in the mean while, I also told him the same thing as in the first clinic. He said the same thing about the tooth on ramus. And then, he said
-- if the third molars were causing all these problems to my TMJ, removing them would be a wise choice
--if it wasnt the third molars problem, it might be the TMJ itself. This condition might come back in future =.=
Advice given- use hot towel to relax my muscles, dont eat too spicy food, no hard food. BETTER GO FOR MAKSILOFACIAL (which is one of the specialist field in dentistry)
Treatment- Paparin, and Metronidazole (I dont know what were they for) The dentist said, antibiotic and anti-inflammatory
Consultation fees : RM 35
p/s: my proximal wall between 1st and 2nd premolar has sign of carious. Oh my...

today I just finished the medicine.. After so many days of muscles spasm, I feel that my mouth is opening to a larger extent now.. but still, not fully open..

recently..

2009-01-13T18:58:00.002+08:00

just to update on myself a bit..

last tuesday, my jaw got stuck...usually condition related to temporomandibular joint(TMJ) is dislocation..but this was not my case.

sound serious ? let me finish first..

Last Tuesday, when I was eating kuih-muih in the morning, I realised that I couldn't open my mouth to swallow that piece of kuih.. When I tried to open my mouth bigger, there I had my pain on the on my TMJ.

Without any hesitation, I went straight to my lecturer. The one who was teaching me Oral Biology, named Dr Safar. Before asking me to go register at the clinic, he printed out a set of journal on TMJ for me to read. In that journal, it stated that patients with TMJ disorder had to take Ibuprofen, 400mg, thrice a day , for a month..

Ok lor, I took the printed journal and went to the clinic to register. Then, Dr Safar came over to take me for X ray. First time I tried such X ray machine. Well, quite a new experience I guess.

Next, Dr Safar asked me to open and close my mouth for few times and then we headed to the clinic to get myself some medicine.--That Ibuprofen, if you still remember.. When I took the prescription to the counter, the nurse asked me, " what happen to you? why need to take such strong medicine? " after I explained to her, then it was my turn to ask.. "this medicine got what side effect ?" She told me every medicine also had its side effect, but since the doctor prescribed this medicine for me, she couldnt do anything also..

Back to the X-ray room, Dr Safar and I got the X ray film. There showed 4 third molars in my maxilla and mandible-- known as jaws.But, they were yet to be erupted.
Poor thing, he said my third molars on lower jaw/mandible were on RAMUS OF MANDIBLE-( if u wan to know more, ask me la). MOST IMPORTANTLY, the teeth needed to be EXTRACTED!

And.. extracting the third molars meant ORAL SURGERY!! oh my god.. during that time, I forgot what I felt.. just a bit helpless.. sigh...

TO be continued...

now, my jaw still is not back to original state yet..

Awaits year 2009

2008-12-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR~ HAPPY NEW YEAR~HAPPY NEW YEAR~HAPPY NEW YEAR~HAPPY NEW YEAR~ HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

I want my font to appear colourful.. sorry if the words make ur eyes turn narrow.. hoho..

hmm.. in less than an hour, year 2009 is approaching.. feeling quite hyper now.. although i have yet to come up with any resolution.. hahaha...

aiyah.. no need rush.. it is just another year... but my age turns 21!!!

to all my friends, happy new year.. may the year of ox will bring lots of luck to all of u.. all da best..!!!

and lastly happy new year !!

2008-12-26T11:11:00.001+08:00

进入假期第三天，什么也没做。。
很无聊兼没心情。。一个字。。懒
在家感觉真好，多了一份归属。。
前几个星期，爽爽就紧张起来，无缘无故地发生，常感觉到心跳加速，
当然并不是看到谁谁才紧张啦。。应该是＂抵死＂的压力害的。。
还好，这种感觉消失了。。高兴！！因为我不想患上忧郁症。。

还有我上学期成绩出炉了。。还好没有肥佬。。谢谢老天。。
不想多说，因为也没有很光荣。。哈哈。。就酱。。

再会

Wee~

2008-12-12T14:03:00.002+08:00

After 4 days in KTSN, i am back at home once more.. Wee~ happy~~
For all da ppl who r still having holiday, enjoy ur holiday while u can~ hehe
and i want to wish CttM, hang fok always~

yesterday went to the dissection hall again.. had to attend the meeting with the cadavers..
this time, they wanted us to see the gastrointestinal tract and urinary system..
and so.. there were duodenum, jejunum, ileum, colons,pancreas, liver, kidneys, stomach, ureter, urethra , urinary bladder,and etc etc on display.. end of story ,full stop

bad news- next friday gonna hav mini test again. SIGH

good news- none

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..............
CHUN CUI SRCEAMING~

coming to an end..

2008-12-07T17:29:00.002+08:00

Two weeks of holidays,
is coming to an end.
This holiday is different,
from the previous one I had.
I am not occupied by the feeling of,
boredom and loneliness,
instead,
I feel contented and joyous,
for being able to go on vacation,
for being able to meet up old friends,
for the first time,
I really rest for 2 weeks.

New semester coming,
I am eager,
I am looking forward,
to meet up my coursemates,
to gossip once more,
to back to study life once more.

Year 2008 is also coming to an end,
I hope everyone is filled with happiness,
no matter what haunts you down,
or troubles you,
have faith in yourself,
troubles will go away,
pain will fade away,
just let time heals you.

great release

2008-11-20T21:29:00.002+08:00

AFTER weeks of sufferings that I had been through, today is the day I have been waiting for~
Right after 2.30pm, right after the Oral Biology OSPE exam, that is the moment where I could flee from the pain of studying.

Ever since the raya holiday, my only one responsibility is to study study and study. Morning attend class, back in the afternoon, study.
After dinner, study again.

When nearing exam period, my time of sleep is extended to 1.00 am, then wake up at 4.30am or 5.00am to study again. *Please do not try this at home, it is not healthy at all*

Mama bought me 3 boxes of chicken essence, each box contains 6 little bottles, and I drink it everyday to keep myself awake during lecture. (but I still fall asleep sometimes)

I am starting to hate the hostel room. Especially the desk. Dont ask why.

To keep all of you updated, my finals starts on monday to thursday.

Monday- Anatomy
the theory part i should consider it to be okay, but still there are some parts which i cannot do.
the OSPE, OSPE is a practical exam, whereby there will be 30 stations in total. In each station, you will be given one minute to answer the questions being asked.
*note: the questions are directed to real cadaver or real life specimens*
and therefore, i do not do well, especially on the upper limb's nerve supply and lower limb's muscles. hope for the best .

Tuesday-Biochemistry
A total disaster. cannot imagine how many marks i have lost. sorry to disappoint u, pn mariati.
nothing more to elaborate on.

Wednesday-Physiology
the mcq are tough, while the essays are still acceptable.
oh ya,back to biochemistry. after exam, my heart totally sinks. but, after a nap, as advised by mama, i went to sleep for an hour.
after waking up, i feel better,and i realise i need to carry on for the next subject, and therefore i do not ponder too long.

Thursday- Oral Biology
the mcqs are again difficult, the essays are unexpected questions by everyone. but i manage to finish it on time.
then OSPE for oral biology, there are also 30 stations, each for 1 minute. er.. lazy to elaborate

FINALLY, all exam end~

AFTER EXAM,
annie, jia xin and i went to sungai wang at bukit bintang. before going there, michael told us about a restaurant named ZANG TOI, which is famous for its chocolate banana cake with ice cream topping.

at first, we did not plan to visit that outlet. however, i think it must be due to some sort of chemical attraction, we arrived in front of ZANG TOI subconciously. =.=

and so, we thought it must be some kind of "yuan fen" that we made our way there, so we sat down and ordered-- the famous CHOCOLATE BANANA CAKE WITH VANILLA ICE CREAM.
i strongly urge everyone to try it, as it was really mouth drooling, the chocolate sensation was intense, and it melted in ur mouth straight away.. and plus the banana fragrance, and the chilling vanilla ice cream, and more importantly, the chocolate cake was HOT and contrary, the ice cream was COLD, two of the elements produced a different tingling effect.. it was GREAT~

ah.. now i m back in my room, blogging without worries.. such a happy day..

The Past..

2008-10-28T15:30:00.004+08:00

Recalling the past,
Believing anything, and
everything being told.
Was this naive?
I did not know.

Recalling the past,
I was living under a false imagination,
assuming that everything was going to be good,
things which happened was a blessed,
but,
things turned me down,
was I naive?
I guess so.

Recalling the past,
flowers which were blooming,
suddenly wilted,
without prior notice,
yet,
I still think it was normal.
Was I dumb?
Yes, I do think so.

Recalling the past,
with all stupidity I had,
what do I have now?
nothing, but ZERO.

sleepy day

2008-10-23T15:30:00.000+08:00

SlEePy!!

midnight 2

2008-10-21T00:19:00.006+08:00

Heart,
a sign of life,
a sign of love,
indeed,
a must for anatomy.

Thank you,
thank you my friends,
who dropped by,
and left their wishes.

Wishes ,
blessings,
and support,
are essential,
especially,
during such moment.

Thank you,
mother,
who works hard,
for her daughter,
without groudges.

nhc,
will procrastinate,
at least for now...

midnight

2008-10-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

doing lab report.
although there has been little tiring signal from my eyes,
i dont feel like sleeping yet.
today is already monday,
a new start, a fresh week,
is it so? i do not know.

life has not been smooth lately,
mainly due to academic workload,
which pile up day by day.
eagerly waiting for the only,
and only 2 weeks break,
but before that,
a long way to reach,
can i do it?
it remains unsolved.

am i able to study?
yes, i have faith,
this is what i need to tell,
tell myself.
my goal, any hope to it?
i do not know, and
do not dare to hope,
as it is as tiny,
as the unreachable stars,
out in da universe.

late in the midnight,
my mind is clearer now,
to see through things,
which i couldnt see.
fingers crossed,
wishing everything,
will be just fine.

the almighty,
please bless me,
with the power you hold,
guide me through,
this new challenge.
i do not want to sink,
sink before trying,
sink beyond the ground.

2008-10-19T15:53:00.004+08:00

Mood : Normal ( it doesnt fluctuate then it is considered as normal )
Brain : Currently being injected with lots of vitamin Biochemistry, but blood report still shows it
lacks of Vitamin Anatomy
Things to express :
-Always hope can be more self-motivated, kick off the crying-babies bad habit
-dont feel down too easily, emotion control is important
-mindset is important, to overcome any obstruction in life- including anything
-plus, birthday falls on exam period.. somo 2 days before exam, why so suei @.@
-hope i can know more friends through pesta angpau activity

going back to KTSN later, a place where I can only face 4 walls, 1 desk, 1 cupboard and books!

**hope i dont get old too soon**

Dental's Family Day

2008-10-12T09:31:00.005+08:00

Date : 11th October 2008 (Saturday)
Venue: KTSN field
Time : 7.30am to 2pm

My team : Cosmos (Rumah Hijau)
(1) Khemah design
-It all started on Friday night. Cosmos team members were "summoned" down somewhere near the field. Boys were required to do all the "pindah-pindah" stuff, while girls were had to do pom-pom(s), and all the decoration for the khemah. After a while, estimated time at about 2130, we all moved to another place- surau, to continue our things.
-Annie and I continued to tear the pom pom, so that it looked more "volumic". Consequences: our fingers were like swollen, and reddish, luckily blister didnt follow up. phew..
-IMPORTANT: friends from other Rumah(s) - Apollo, Soyuz and Skylab, could go back to their rooms and rest, the latest at 11pm. COSMOS punya orang, had to stay up until 2am! and that was the time when Annie and I left. There were still people doing after 2am.
-IN CONTRAST: The boys who had done all the "pindah-pindah" things were so relaxing down there, without having anything to do. A bit geram! so unfair!

(2) ThE DaY
-suppose all members should go down by 7.30am,but Annie and I went down at 8am. (lol)
-the khemah was --satisfying , when you had seen the other Rumah design, their designs were also so-so. (muahahaha)
-the day started off with aerobic exercise. Then, seniors continued to turn up, surprsingly, there were quite a lot of the 4th and 5th years seniors who turned up~
-IMPORTANT : Dr Safar ( the lecturer who teaches Oral Biology ) and the Dean - Prof Ghazali also attended!! Dr Safar's stretching out seemed to be a bit exaggerated, as it was a huge difference with what the instructors had shown in front.. for those of you who had witnessed it yesterday, you all would know what I meant by exaggerated. The Dean pula, busy stretching out with his camera. While senamerobik-ing, he could move and take photos of his "beloved" students.. =.=

(3)The games
-aiya, not much - basketball, volleyball, netball.. blah blah blah
-sukaneka, erm, well, COSMOS won most of the games. (proud, although we cheated) hahahaha
-IMPORTANT : VICO came and sponsored us with their drinks~

(4) The photos
-Due to the blazing sunshine, and we were too free to do anything, photo taking would be a nice choice.

from left to right: lili, lv, jia xin, annie, bee hwa, hui yin

from left to right: lili, lv, eng choon, sam, eugene

me, jia xin, annie , bee hwa, hui yin

SK, me, annie

first year with Dr Safar

Cosmos- Scott, me, annie, bernard and SK

My buddy and I- she said she didnt want her photo to be uploaded

and so.. the day ended..

photos

2008-10-03T16:10:00.004+08:00

just as what I have promised.. photos.. well.. there are just a few of them.. hope you all will forgive me.. +)

this was the first photo which i took with my new phone.

this pouch cost RM5
my mom-she said she liked this photo the most. ")
Me- with those two incurable pimples
teluk pulai temple-never thought it could be so nice

that's all.. ahem..

nothing much but still there is a little

2008-10-02T11:04:00.003+08:00

hmm.. nothing much to update..
Yesterday I tried mind-mapping with all my "equipments" ready.
Erm, results- not bad satisfying
Real results -need to be assessed by Pn Mariati
Things to be done by this week

BSMM presentation slide
PDL presentation slide
Whole bunch of revision awaiting
Half-way done Oral Biology practical
Things which I couldnt remember

Joyous Saturday..

2008-09-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

Well, it was joyous as I got a new phone after the previous one had accidentally fallen into the toilet bowl and the man at the service center had declared my nokia phone BRAIN DEAD. It was not even 3 months old that time, what a sad loss.

But as the old saying goes, if the old one doesnt leave, the new one wont come to you..After 6 months, which was yesterday, YAY, I went to Sunway Pyramid -to be more specifically, Sony Ericsson certified service center to survey which phone was suitable.

I must say that the staffs there were quite helpful and patience as he carefully asked what was my budget and phone which I was seeking for..
Finally, after having hand contact with K810 which was too bulky, and K(dont know what model already, which it didnt have flash, which meant i couldnt take nice photos at night), so I had chosen K770i.

erm, I havent got the chance to upload the photo here.. but it will be soon.. As this is the first time I am using Sony Ericsson's phone, I need some time to get used to it with all those functions and keypad.. somehow it is different from nokia.. but hope it is resistant towards mechanical abrasion and tension? ahem.. as I might drop the phone on the floor.. hope it is hard enough..

It is 3.2 megapixels phone with 3G services and in coincidence I passed by a Maxis service center, so I got my phone activated with 3G service.. so anyone who wish to try out 3G, can video conference with me? haha..

HOPE EVERYONE CAN CHEER UP IN THIS UPCOMING RAYA..\
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.. ISH, If I am wrong, then sorry larh..

Home..

2008-09-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

Finally back at home as I will be having a week of holiday in conjunction with Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Phew.. It feels great to be home only when there is people at home, if not, I will be rotting all the way.. I felt so much like going home on Thursday night..

Ok, let me bring you all back to Thursday night..
Bee Hua is my coursemate from Kelantan, she speaks a little bit of KelantaE..

Ok, she came and asked me to go for BSMM duty that day, well , I said ok without thinking much..

Next, we went down together to the BSMM room.. There was a guy waiting also.. waiting to duty.. his first sentence ,"you all are dental students ah?" We nodded and continued to wait.

So, here comes Brian (the person -in -charge to open the room for us to go in), so the door opened and we got inside and took our seat..This had yet to be the main point yet..

So, that guy also sat down opposite , facing us.. Ok here it started..
While Bee Hua and I were looking at our books, suddenly, "Hai, 你们好..."=.-
Now let me introduce this guy, if you all in UKM, sure you will know this guy, Trevor Chan from Fac of medicine.. bespectacled, rounded face.. ok i shall stop on his appearance..

We were like .. "What were he doing??" Below were our conversation--
Trevor- T, Bee Hua-B, Me-A
T: 我在想一个好的开场白，Hai是最好了.. 你们好啊。。

B and A: DENG... @@

T:我先来介绍我自己啦。。我名叫庆原（如果没有错的话，我没有问他的名字如何写）。。来自
sarawak。。

B and A: DENG DENG... #.#

B: 她叫慧贞.

A:她叫美华.

T: 你们两个一定是stpm的叻？你们看起来很成熟叻。。

B and A:我们不是stpm的。。（虽然我是，可是美华不是）

B:你不用酱婉转的啦，成熟不好听一点就是老。。

T:不是，不是，你们很成熟大方嘛。。

B and A:_._T:你看你看，笑了。。

A:我们没有在笑。。

T:有啦，都漏出牙齿了。。

B and A:（头低低，不知所措。。）

T：你看你看，还有酒窝（美华是笑的时候是有少少的dimples）

A: 你不是要读书的啊。。还不读？
T：我比较喜欢讲话多过读书咯。。
B and A: （没有理他）
T：你（指美华）的电话保养到不错哦。。用了几久？
B：谢谢。。用一星期。。
T：喔，一定是电话不见叻，我朋友嘛是不见电话。。
B and A: +.+
T：很sien叻，打电话叫永俊来。。
A：（我们是想叫永俊来打发他）好啊，我现在就打..
。。。。。。。。 OK 啦，你现在来啊。。BYE
张永俊，外称，裴勇俊。。也是我同学。。他一直都很想住宿舍，结果他就很努力去争取merit的机会，这次也不例外。。
永俊-C
so, when C just stepped in not even 10minutes, Trevor left the room by saying, "我要出去一下，很快回来。。"
when he was back, the clock showed 2230..

In conclusion, this was a nice scene.. for the audience, but not to us...end story, if you happen to meet Trevor Chan or bump into him in school, beware.. of his Friendliness...

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Other than the incident above, I tried to read up Periodontal Ligament, and tooth eruption on that night.. I did not know why, I couldn't get a word into my memory sac, I felt so irritated but I did not know what to do.. again MANG ZHANG -ness dropped by and visited me..
Feeling miserably, luckily Bee Hua sort of calmed me down, thanks to her..
Then back in my room, for the first time ever I felt so much like going home..
I wanted to see mama... I wanted to smell on my small heart shaped pillow.. I wanted HOME!!
argh.... Again, I have decided to sleep early on that night.. due to all contrbuting factors..
Luckily, I was fine on the next morning.. Phew..

In conclusion, during pek chek time, take a rest.. so that you can travel further..

Quotes of the day:

Although I am pro in sleeping during lecture, that doesnt mean I will sleep in front of my PC
When holding the brain, it also leaks out juice(formalin)

Happy news and bad news

2008-09-25T22:19:00.004+08:00

Just got my Enamel and Dentine results yesterday..
Enamel
Matrix no : A 122205 C+ (passed)
Dentine
Matrix no : A 122205 C- (failed)

Phew.. when I looked at the result, the feeling was like going down the hill, rolling down at a slow pace.. because there were also many of my coursemates who failed.. but still, it was a fail..
I did read on it, but didnt know what went wrong, I sueh sueh failed this chapter which contribute 7.5% in my finals.. SO... I actually lost the marks.. kinda sad in the morning.. However, no one counsel me.. So I gotta counsel myself then.. I should learn to overcome bad feeling which haunt me down, because I really hate that feeling.. nearly 20 years old by now.. everything should be seen from a positive side... Especially I need to handle my emotion better..
Anyhow, I feel there is a slight improvement within myself.. I THINK..
main point was, after one lecture, then I was fine again.. Besides, I even kepo went and counsel my friends also.. ( I might have the potential to be a counsellor? who knows right?)..

Then today... another result was out.. BioChem..
A- ( feel happy for myself ) Big applause to myself for my not - very- much -effort (but dont be mistaken, there was still effort OK?) ... there was feedback from lecturers on our mini test.. and they blah blah... blah... and then there was a tragic moment after that.. Everyone rushed to the faculty and looked at their results.. BikabOOM.. there were all kinds of expressions from my coursemates.. Some of them did not perform well and they had an emotion outbreak... My heart really sank with them.. We had been through IO(informal orientation ) with them, we really had the toughest moment with the seniors, we had laugh and cries all together.. and I hope everyone of us can pass together as one .. and of course I counselled them once more... We sort of discussed the exam technique and all sorts of stuff.. and I hope I could help them out.. I really do..

hmm.. i guess i need to study for anatomy tutorial tomorrow.. NIGHT..

QUOTE OF THE DAY :

people can still find their happiness where i do not exist....
but i have nowhere to go...where is my happiness...

Helpless

2008-09-21T15:07:00.002+08:00

Oh no.. what is wrong with me? for now I feel so miserable.. I don't know where to start nor what to do.. just feel so helpless.. Am I tired? Yes, mentally tired.. Am I not able to go through all these? I don't know.. I need some extra strength somewhere.. especially my mental.. it is too weak and vulnerable.. it is unable to defend attack by attack from unknown sources..
with the end of semester exam approaching, plus the pressure given by my mentor, it is like a whole new burden being placed on my shoulder.. my mentor said if you all don't start by now, you will fail.. whenever there is a self study period during class, go STRAIGHT to the library.. what was that advice? i don't think i can follow.. GO TO LIBRARY LIKE YOUR SECOND HOME??!!
I have faith in myself but at the same time I am lost in nowhere.. I know it is bullshit for me to say all these.. but I am really helpless, especially at this critical period.. When all my old friends are not on the same boat with me.. and new friends usually don't get a chance to see my miserable face ( because I usually feel miserable at home )...
Argh, just feel like having an emotional outburst!! I want to enjoy every moment I could.. with peace and do anything without pressure.. but can we live without pressure? I doubt it..
I know I need to overcome all this by myself.. I just dont have a clue right now..
May guanima will let me see the light , shining in front of me..

SIGH......

After a weekkkkkk....

2008-09-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

After a week of holiday, I was back to school once more...
After two days, I had my BioChem mini tests.. ( at least I know I would pass )
After five days, I am back to my home now.. resting on sofa and blogging here..
After five days, I will have to complete BioChem tutorial, Anatomy tutorial and BioChem report..
This week I had more free time, however, I did not study much.. Sigh.. cannot find the proper mood to study, what to do?
Oh yeah.. I passed my Anatomy mini test with grade B.. Thanks god for letting me to pass..
After 11 weeks of study, for the first time in my life, I have 3 pimples together on my face..
They seem serious acne, and they show sign of inflammation.. REDNESS and BENGKAK..
After my break for a week, it is others turn to have holidays too.. starting from today.. and it lasts for 2 weeks.. That means, whole campus will be quiet for a week.. until it is my turn to holiday next week.. ( Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri )
One of my friends is having depression, hope he is alright.. just don't think too much and work out your relationship with all your coursemates.. They are important to you in 4 years time.. So, don't be alone..
For another friend, congratulation for getting B+ in Physiology and A- in Anatomy.. All the best to you in incoming exams..
Hope I can score too...
Dinner time.. Byez...

Stress out..

2008-09-01T14:13:00.000+08:00

I often wonder.. Am I not good enough to be considered a friend? I know I am not that appealing from the appearance.. but I have always tried my best to improve on my personality.. Sometimes friends around me kinda disappear one by one upon graduation.. I don't know why.. but it just doesn't seem too right for me.. I have thought on this matter for quite some time.. I still couldn't figure out why.. Can someone enlighten me on this? I am lost.. What is friendship actually meant to everyone? Is everyone that busy until we have no time for our old friends?

I admit I am kinda inhibit person, and I kindly do not have bunch of friends out there waiting for me.. but I do treasure everyone of my friend..really.. Friends are like my mental support besides my family.. When I don't get to reach my family when I am feeling down, friends would be my place to shed my tears, hear my grudges.. and so on..

So, I hope everyone would treasure their friends also.. as you can contact your friends more often(though you might have to waste some money), ask them out for tea or even K songs with them.. Selfishness will lead you to nowhere.. so WAKE UP and START CONTACTING your friends~~